Going back to hell...I mean School

Well, I go to take my placement exams this week and I'll be starting school most likely by the end of this month. It's strange, I'm already feeling suffocated and I haven't even started yet. I'm already starting to fight the fight, which is my time vs. responsibility. Will I go to that movie I really want to see, or will I go and write that paper like I'm supposed to. And to tell you the truth, my time is already winning the first of my mental battles and perhaps the war, we'll see.

On the other hand, I'm excited about school. Or, more honestly, I'm excited about receiving my degree along with the certification that allows me to help animals. However, it's getting to that point that I'm having the problem with, but, why not be excited about the victory for now.

I have days where I'm excited about school and the general idea of succeeding and starting a career that I know I'll love. And then there's those other days I realize that, well, I'm me, and I haven't liked school in the past two years. But, perhaps things will be different this time around, perhaps college will be different, and perhaps I'll feel differently about myself and school once I start. And if not, well, I'll drudge through it but at the same time I will rebel, I will make excuses...

In the mean time, I can only contemplate and be afraid/excited. But either way, I'm not taking any regrets with this one, I either like it or I don't, no big deal, right?