Starting at the Finish Line

As I start a new year I can imagine myself getting older and this is a great perspective for me, gives me time to re-evaluate things about myself and my life. I'm only getting older and I've decided that I'm not just going to put up with things for the sake of puting up with them. If it makes me unhappy I'm going to do what I need to do to change it, I'm not just going to put it on the back burner and try and not think about it. Things need to be changed now because they do bother me, I never dealt with it, I never just got over it and if I don't solve this problem for myself now, things won't last, I will back out. I'm tired of holding everything in, bottling it all up until I have these moments where I break down, it's not healthy. I'm not strong, I'm weak, and I'm accepting that. I'm not pretending to be this pilar of strength anymore, if I don't like it, you're gonna know...If I'm unhappy, I'm gonna fix it and be happy...

This wall is gone and I was the one that destroyed it, I just need to hide the blocks that rebuild themselves...