Sacrifice

Going to school and working full time is already starting to become taxing...I feel my energy depleating and my time to focus on myself becoming less and less...That's what makes me angry, as soon as I get a second to focus on myself I seem to completely demolish that with something else I feel needs to be done, not even necessarily something more important. I'm constantly sacrificing myself to...myself. In this case it's more of a brawns over brains, do I increase my knowledge or my health? Can I do both? I have never been able to find a balance between mind and body, is that balance even attainable?

As I grow I'm constantly trying to find that balance, perhaps as a human that is one purpose that I serve, to find balance, to find peace. I feel like there is this place I need to be, a place of rest, a place of comfortability, and maybe that's what happiness encompasses, maybe I'll never get there. But I know I have a purpose, and the purpose that I believe I have now is to make myself happy, peaceful and do everything I can to get there.

I feel like a lot of people out there are just...breathing...Going to work, coming home, taking care of the kids...and there is this void, this unoccupied space where happiness should be, and I'm not going to let that happen to me. I've lived it and I've witnessed it too much in my lifetime to let it happen to me. My happiness comes first, and before I get there I can't worry about anyone elses.